Conquer by Colet Abedi

Author:Colet Abedi
Language: eng
Format: epub

Chapter Thirteen

Vivianne

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On the first day I didn’t hear from William, I was slightly worried.

On the second and third day, my emotions vacillated from anger, to outrage, to worry, to sadness, and then right back to longing.

I longed to hear from him, to see him, to have him touch me again. The memories of that night filled my days. I could not stop thinking about him. About how he made me feel. About everything. And the thought of never having that feeling that he gave me again left me almost heartbroken. I thought Jacob was right; maybe William really was a ghost who had come into my home to give me pleasure and then disappear into the night.

I don’t even know how it’s possible to care so much for someone that quickly. To long for them the way I long for him. It’s quite unbelievable and pretty depressing.

I am heartsick over a man I barely know, who the world thought was dead, who more than likely has many dark inner demons to still battle. A man who kissed me senseless and made me feel alive. One who made everything else in the world cease to exist. A man who made me feel something magic.

It’s been five days now and not a single word.

I know the dance between us is over. He has moved on. And the really awful part is that I understand why. I don’t like it, but I understand it. The truth is that he just got back to the city and reconnected with all of his old world. And now, he’s entertaining women from his crowd and just having fun. He’s been gone for eleven years. He has so much catching up to do regardless of what he said to me that night in my room. He’s being reintroduced into his old life and should be enjoying himself, even if it hurts for me.

It really feels like what happened between us was just a dream. One minute he was here and the next… Gone like a phantom lover.

But it’s hard to stop thinking about him. Stop obsessing over every moment, every little detail like the words that were spoken and the way he touched me. It’s nearly impossible for me to not want to relive it every second.

Thankfully, I can do that all on my lonesome.

Uncle Charles extended his trip in the country and invited me out to join him, but I told him I wanted to finish my book and that I was on a roll. That was obviously a big lie, but there was no other excuse I could make that would make sense to him. The truth is I’ve barely written a word, and what words I do attempt to write are pure garbage and embarrassing to read. If I have to add lack of talent to my list of things to be depressed about right now, I might scream.

William Sinclair is enough.

Jacob and Dave tried to talk me out of my sad cave, but I didn’t let them.

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